Walking across time, Years like hundreds of miles
There was nothing in the falling rain, but still we search
This world was not cursed by a deity
It was damned by you and me
Why do we hurt as we live in fear
Where was all this hate born from
Could there ever be another way
Could we have ever had it in some other life
Realities don't shatter like glass
The hold fast like diamonds
Contemplating the suit and tie and the syringe
This was never meant to be
Even when it was etched in stone
Hurting the ones we love
Loving the ones we hate
Nothing like temptation to draw the lines in our eyes
Define pain and I'll give you every souls definition of all this agony
The same causes but it all hurts so beautifully different
A thousand upon millions of blackened souls
Never will we be the same again
Life has become something else entirely
Why does the fear never die
Witches
Your eyes both follow me with every movement I make unto you
Two pairs of lips bite and kiss my neck in the candles flickering lights
The power you have to make me feel so, so possessed
The sunset’s dying and the early dark only gives way to this unholy entwining in the early dusk
A mocking of this sinister trinity with three melancholy knocks on flesh
We both feel your body seize in pleasure as light it afire with a touch from either side
You eyes show all white as I take your soul over your tongue
The spirits within are annihilating our bodies
Cloth drips wet clear liquids stained with our hot breathes in the cold
Two flavors side by side and so seductive
Your burnt and ashen wings are so soft
She lays in her crucifix pose
As she exorcises her with another unknown entity
A holy spirit fills you, and a demonic one takes its place
You bow on hands and knees to accept your communion
Body and blood
Whilst behinds you are your carnal and sinful desires being satisfied
The priestess reaches down to caress you
The devil pulls back your head
I taste and I feel
The way I feel one thing on my thighs, gently rocking on the ride down
And another over my face, gently moving like the breeze, lovingly warm wind on my flesh
It feels so similar
Nowhere To Go
All alone and don't have nothing but a few dollars
Everyone I had Is gone today
This life of mine is never gonna heal
I can sing these blues until I turn all frost-bit and rotted black
But I'd just be singing them to the cold and dark skies
Barely illuminated by all my fading stars
The couch that is my home isn't doing me a favor
Ain't no charity for free
But you see Mr. man and Mrs. ma'am
I just had to get away, yeah I just had to run away
From a past that's been chasing me way past the city limits
Way past the sirens and main street silence and street light broken nights
On my feet, In my head
And yes I know It sure indeed Is cold and hot outside
But not like the heat I used to get at home
Not like the daily cold shoulder
No ones ever done me nothing for nothing
So I understand how this may seem
But you gotta see that this is my sorrow
I wanna go home to my new home I made up in my head
Where I can be all alone and I don't gotta see another fuckin' face
Another phony seller
Another sacrilegious prostitute
Another poverty lord In a a/c office
I just wanna go home
I wanna call my home
And feel the warmth and taste the home cooked meals
And feel like I'm not some bother, some inconvenience
Have my own where I can be my own
Be home, so I never wanna come home again
Hoodlum Love
The glass panes shatter once again
They have never been so close to having love of their own before
Like they are in the back of a cop car
Shoulder to shoulder and cuffed together at the wrist for the long ride
But no cell could hold what they had inside
There's no place for them in this whole place except right here
Her cigarette has been lit and shes beautiful and dangerous
And he's said a liquor prayer he's hateful and insane
Their scars aren't ever going to heal
Oh well
Life is fun while it lasted, but I think we're dying now
They hide together when their parents aren't home
Under blankets warm to shield themselves from the cold of the world
They can't cope anywhere but inside of themselves
Locked In A Closet
I'm not telling you anything, anymore
What? So you can call me liar, fuck you
When I tell you how grandmother said,
" You better remember grandpa
Because this is the last time you're gonna see him
Because tonight, when he's asleep..."
KKKRREAKAKKKK
She says this while running a finger over her throat
She slams her door again, And i scream and I cry
In fear and hate, I scream and cry
You didn't see those eyes
Like walking in the night with no moonlight
Her face entirely wet with tears
All these years later and their screaming won't stop
My uncle lives with them
I can tell you about he's teasing and bullying and laughing at me
But If I had a dollar for everyone that hurt me
I'd have enough to buy a weapon with a bullet for everyone plus me
So he's just another motherfucker except the times he chased me for fighting back
"Call my stuff stupid Does the word fuck face mean anything to you?"
You don't like the F word?
Chasing me to the room i'm locked in
Beating to break the door
My grandfather tries to pick the lock
He doesn't give a good goddamn what happens to me
As long as that damn door doesn't cave '
The only thing saving me from getting beat is them beating on each other
1,2,3 cop cars in the driveway
Doesn't matter nothing ever happens
I guess that's what you had in mind when you said they're just old fashioned
Pulling knives on me
Try to push my eyes in with your thumbs
Corner me, chase me, beat me with you'r fists some more
I hardly feel it anymore
Yell at me and call me everything you can think of
It's doesn't matter , I hardly feel that to
My mom used to watch me in the shower
She made me touch her on the chest where I shouldn't have
Coat hangers, belts , shoes, frying pans, remotes, books, food
Open handed or white knuckled fists, it's all the same
My head, my back, my legs, my arms, my chest
But all someone like you can say is " Are you sure that really happend?"
Hell yeah I'm sure, I felt it motherfucker
"Was it really that bad?"
I don't exaggerate and if I did you couldn't tell
What do you know about this world, the real world, you civilized piggy
And some one else just has to say,
" Hey I've been there and i don't think what you have to say is all that bad.
I've seen a whole lot worse."
Yeah, oh yeah? Let me sum you up
While you experienced a fraction of darkness
Something you say is "Bigger than me"
Trying to suck me into your mine is worse than yours game
I learned well and I stayed strong
But your little story about not getting all that material you wanted
From a good present rich daddy and a subservient mother
You shoved every substance you could inside every hole you have
And like another weak junkie you cleaned up and became a saved and born again hypocrite
So it means so much coming from a man with a cross on his head
Some whispers in my ear " Hey, I heard so and so say she doesn't believe you."
Does It look like I give a shit?
Like I fucking care
It happened so believe it or don't
You don't know about being solitary
So many years around so many faces
Only paying you a negative mind
I can't stand to talk to anyone
To look at them
It's so painful to interact, I spectate instead
And I've learned to hate you
Before you get to know me enough to hate me
Look at me like the fucking freak
A monster that I am
Just for my hate and anger
I'm sick and I'm tired
I'm sick and I'm tired
Of being the only one who can't hate
While you call me everything
But the only liar is you
Keep lying to yourself
I Don’t Know You
I look in the mirror and I find I don’t know you anymore
I don’t know this person I see
This person I live in
I remember trying to live a normal life
And when I resurfaced from the waters I had been suffocating in
I saw I was living like the dead
Alone, in a room, and anything but normal
A child and nothing more
Hurting and scared all the time
Sad and wishing for someone or something to fulfill
Words couldn’t describe
You knew your weakness and how ugly and powerless you could feel
You knew you weren’t them like you do now
But I’ve gotten colder, and you had more faith
You had a drive, a will to live,
But I can feel that is slowly dying to
How much could anyone hurt you?
They could destroy everything
So you grew your hate
And your fat body and unhappy mind began to hurt
Your skin began to hurt
You were sensitive and sometimes that still is true
But you knew something was wrong with you
You shouldn’t have been and you didn’t ask to be
So you hated everything and then you hated yourself
Your hate grew like a tree
But now I can feel it overgrowing the fence lines of your heart
So you planted a few ideas
And a big one came true when you needed it and were weak
So now I plan to be better to be fierce and deadly and something wilder than all your imagination growing in that room
No matter where I end up
I have reached the end of this life limit
I want more
I want more for the arms that wrapped themselves around you at night because they had nowhere else to be
The earth was your friend and so was everything inside
Because outside now that I evoke old tired thoughts
I remember all the pain
But I’m done with the pain
Done with people and society and being this way
You became me as you got tired of everything
Hate because love was dead like god was dead to Nietzsche
There is no trust amongst these animals we call people
They are all just as corrupt
People always comment on you
Because to see what they are would kill them because they contradict their own sick and stupid society
You could never feel good enough
But we will be
I thought I didn’t know you
but maybe you don’t know me
One Nation, Under Itself( Our Own Nemesis)
This world has become a conformist elite
Emotions obsolete with religion and everything else you once loved
Everybody just works till they die
From the day of your birth you were created as a gift to death
And you can stop me when I lie, but I promise you’ll only beg for more
Dystopian future is here and its now
They wrote it over and over
But you didn’t listen and now it’s too late
You’re more robotic than you are of flesh
Women bow down, prepare to be bred
Men bow lower, do the slave and war dance
Waltz under the marionette strings
Kill each other become stricken with disease
If there’s a god, the devil is government
The devil is his church
The tracking chips installed
You’re new and improved
You create only pain and suffering
You create more machines as they threaten our lives
There are no countries now
Patriotism just a tool to keep you in line
It’s all one world now under greed
Brainwashed with sex and violence
They gave you drugs to make you unable to care
The more of us stand on our feet the less we must fear
The rebellion lives within you
Not Made For Human Consumption
Blood in your eyes, blood on your hands
Kill one kill them all
Only a man, only a woman, only a child, only a baby
Not a tear is shed for very long
The human assembly line keeps creating more new souls to break
Going to war, going to crime
If I break a mirror over your head will you see then
Narcissist society, cannibals and pigs in wolves clothing in a sheep’s skin
Take another pretty picture, put on lots of makeup
Jack off some more and more, go play your sports, worship, work, watch tv, drink, die
Play on shuffle or repeat its still the same
Look good today in another urn on another mantel tomorrow
I can’t take your insanity anymore, it’s to much lock me away
Throw away the keys, shut me up, I’m sick
Sometimes I want to die to get away
Sometimes I want to live to feed my soul
Stop this madness, it’s tearing me in two
Rip me up, chew me apart
Spit me out, stomp me flat
11,12,13
Throat bleeding with a raging roar
The sunset’s orange like a Halloween month eve
All alone I find trouble
I wish I had someone
I don’t, so I think I’ll die
Sick of this existence
Solitude is nice
But not this way
Let the day fade
Feel my hold on sanity loosen
Maybe I’ll kill more than myself
No one hears me but my mind
Peace I’ll never find
Hurting and hitting
Useless time
I feel born to be wasted
This worlds slipping away from my heart
Like how they all fell from my life
You don’t know, you don’t care
What does that matter
I just wish to relate
But it’ll fade
In my tub of bath water and blood
Apt. 666 ( No Place like Here)
Come with me to this suffering realm
Eyes of black, a place below of hell
Haunted by pain and awful memories
Drugs and rape, murder beyond worries
Welcome to the darkest place on earth
Beyond a place that misery fears
An abyss darker than the tools of evil the mind creates
This dark room in a building of these desecrated dwellings
But this one is where the devil walks on glass
All the abuse in the world can fit here with room for you and me
Loveless and lightless
Hatred is king, and your sorrow is god
Tears of the innocent girls
Screams of such brave men
Blood and shit and the razor your father cut your mothers neck with
Let your virility rot and your passion fade
No escape from this windowless place
Forgotten by god and forsaken by all angels above and below
Pain that rips through flesh into the soul
Where your children are consumed and your elders obliviated
See the you I see
See the place beyond the imagination the way I do
Let me give you the great beast you are
Alternative Darkness 