Ah By the tears of the rain in the pavement cracks
Sealing the breaks in the hardened and cold voice
I remember so many times
The sky looked like a warped kind of you
In the summer I lusted for winter and in the winter I Thought of summer
The way I missed you is so similar
When you’re here it’s left me wanting
When you’re gone I’m simply miserable
But it doesen’t matter anyway
The world is dying
Christmas has no cheer just like all the other days
I want to disappear in the snow
Not in the pollution
Not in the pain and suffering
Not in this man-made America
You could not understand
This I know because I see it in your diamond eyes
With looks that should cut me
Mother I bleed and I can only look at you with everything but anything good
It hurted me
It deserted me
The cold goes into my body
As I stare over the bay of land
2000 Plus(and every year before is just as bad)
We ain’t living in no time worth living in
So modern so refined
But you still can’t read or tie your shoes
All you do is judge but you can’t even hate yourself
So advanced so in demand
But you don’t have a fucking soul to your name
No one cares they just stare
Dead eyed and compliant
This ain’t no dream I ever heard of
So why do they say American dream
I didn’t know dreams had citizenship, class, or race
Don’t teach us that bullshit
Buddy you wouldn’t know wrong if they shot your son on your front lawn
So where do you get off preaching on what’s right
The ugliest of people is recorded in me
On film like out a cassette
So out of date but who could give a fuck
At least I can reflect and not just do
You do do do
But you should think think think
Living in 2019, 20xx
Ain’t a time worth living in
It hasn’t been since we made it so ugly
Wanna see bad
See what I remember
I’ll show you horror motherfucker
These men in suits ain’t changing shit
They won’t till you wake up out of your job they chain you to
To classify to restrict to mutilate
And bang your fist louder than their podium lies
Their altar praise and alter egos
One day you’re gonna see your dumbass was wrong
And it’ll be too late by then
And I’ll laugh and laugh
And keep laughing
Broken Dolls and Torn up Paper Angels
I found you like a little broken china doll
I took you through the cobblestone and concrete home
I glued and mended your porcelain face
I stitched your clothes and made you a heart of clay
You had such empty eyes still
I could only make them gleam in the streetlights
I kissed your cold, cold lips
I found my tongue unable to go any further
I found a tear in your glass eyes
That fell upon all the pain no one else could see
All the depression and suffering within me
Deep within the windows of my own eyes
You let me comb at your old and matted synthetic hair
I put my hand on your chest and that heart didn’t beat
Your chest didn’t rise and fall
Even after I put blood in your tile and your fabric
I weaved this and that and still nothing
Nothing but my denial was real
Life After Death
When you’re sitting at the funeral wake
And the purple mountains are tainted with hazy red and orange
And as beautiful as the earth really seems
Everyone around you is full of bullshit you know
You don’t have no one, no shoulders to lay a head upon nor cry upon
And even if you did wouldn’t all your regrets still be there in the morning
Every midday, every afternoon
You love to see every minute of the sun
But you stay up most of the night to wait out the storm in the dark
Baptized bastards, and you can tell them from so far away
They try to run you to the edge of the world
So you can fall right off the edge
But you just keep going around and around
And no one anywhere cares about you
Whether you live or should you die
Weather you lay on your bed bleeding
Or on the floor crying
Your body sore with welts
Or bruises the size of fists or big bosomed women
The cigarettes ain’t helping you anyway
Your hangover getting worse
Age is a pile of mule shit
Even though you don’t have a single wrinkle on your skin
You’re turning grey
My Affection Withers In This Tragedy
There was a time when I’d see us walking amongst the trees and rain
Now all I see when I look down at your grave
Is the television that day, unphased reporter saying x amount dead
Another mass killing and my life has been ruined again
The tears Have carved a labyrinth of paths through my heart
I can’t make sense of wrong and right
I thought I’d felt it all before this grief so heavy bared across my back
Like rain of steel piercing all of me
I hate it all I hate you all
What was so wrong with all of you
Now everything I ever had was stolen away
Seeing visions in my sorrow of someone I loved in a heaven I didn’t believe in
Now I need that heaven more than ever
I need it if I ever wanna see you again
This world doesn't hold a fucking thing for me
I cry as I lay all day and all night where you sleep forever
I want my revenge that I’ll never have
I want to make something better
Because I know I’ll never love again
As the tools of death ring in ears everywhere
Politicians and religious figures offer prayers and silence
I don’t want your pity
I want something back that no one can give me
I don’t care why they did it
I know the killer probably had pain inside to
But I will never forgive and never relate
For all the agony and torture my soul holds now is all their fault
And it wasn’t my loves fault for any of it so why and how can it all be gone
How could you do that to someone who never knew you and never hurt you
I am marked by the ashes of this apocalypse until I die
Nothing’s changing because no one can understand what’s going on
No one’s listening, they just act like they are
And I know it’s not gonna be the last time
Review of Nightmare Files
Nightmare Files is a YouTube channel that produces creepy and mostly true content. Definitely for fans of this sort of thing on YouTube such as Mr. Nightmare, Corpse Husband, And Mr. ScareKrow. Also Nightmare File’s narration is some of the highest quality out of all these channels as his voice is definitely a great element in his own signature style. The background sound effects and music is also probably the best done out of all these channels with maybe only Mr. Nightmare competing. The music alone to some of Nightmare Files videos is enough to add a new dimension of paranoia to the listening experience. The channel also has frequent new uploads. Also the stories themselves fit the channel and are perfectly selected. The channel is a tad newer than some others so content may feel a little limited but with the new upload pace being much faster than other channels this is not an issue. The Intros are well done, nightmare files logo looks great, and the thumbnail shots of the videos make every one look intriguing. Honestly one of my favorite horror themed YouTube channels. Here are some sample videos.
Living alone
Her tattoo reads, "out of order"
Broken minds, broken bones
Nothing works out like It's meant to be
You just crawl your way through life
Never knowing If things are gonna be ok
No friends,no family
Life getting so out of hand
You fear death, but you just don't care
You exist
You don't live
Politicians, religion
It all fades
You believe what you taught yourself
You believe what you learned
Not what society,others, culture
Wound into your head
Writing on the bathroom walls to your soul
You graffiti your heart yourself
Broken heart, Broken soul
Whose to say if we die we won't meet again
Till the death sensation takes hold
Arms Out, fists balled, blood seething
Let the shadows corrupt my reptilian flesh
My long claws sear myself
Pain runs down my bedroom wall like period blood
Wanna commit suicide
I'm so tired but I gotta keep moving
I go to my institution
I guess It's ok
But when I leave what am I to do
All my work, no life, no love
What's a friend, what's being happy
Being taken by the hand
Can't stand being kept this way
Another dark day
Nothings pulling me through
Can't you see what I am
I've got tears on my tongue
Made with vinegar and my dead ones lung
I miss the one or two who counted
If their ever were any
I'm lonely and alone
It's day It's night
The world s still turning ,anyway
Unnatural
My flesh is a Jerry cans victim
My body turns to ask with the way you make me feel
I never had such beautiful nightmares 'till I met you
I never seen a fitful serenity like you
I hurt In agony with every syllable of love
I spasm and feel the fire of your fingertips
You're such a wicked thing
A vicious paradise
My rageful prose
My nighttime song spinster
The blade of your voice slices me deep
I grit my teeth at the dazzling vileness
I see perplexed kaleidoscopes in your eyes
I see every color of an acid image
Incinerate all I see
Erasing my retinas
What a evil love you make
To make me scream to be possessed by you
I want to see your expression go dumb
I want to see you breathe with me
I want your twilight sweat all over me
And I want us forever still as one in a sunset
Band Overview: Life Of Agony
My first experience with this band was sometime when I was in middle school. I remember going through suggestions based on what I was listening to. Listed under “similar to Type O Negative” was Life of Agony’s debut album River Runs Red. Released in 1993 off of Roadrunner Records, I was amazed and left utterly emotional. The music had hurt my soul, the lyrics had spoke to me not from the headphone speakers, but from inside. Angry and sorrowful, the album has a concept of the last week of life of a teenage boy who later commits suicide. I listened to the album through and through. The thrash and hardcore inspired beats intertwined with sheering guitars and melancholy melodies the guitar strung in with Keith Caputo’s unique vocal style. A vocal style that was loud with rage but strife and ridden with grief. The entire album has earned it’s place permanently in my top ten.In fact, the album Is so highly recommended by me I suggest If you are reading this to find a way to listen to It as soon as you finish. Now for the next album, 1995’s ugly. It was a bit of a sophomore slump. The album was good but just not as good as River Runs Red. It was more melodic and sounded a little more mainstream than some would’ve liked. But by the time 1997’s Soul searching sun came around the bend, the band sounded like a completely different entity. All the heavy rage in the vocals were gone, replaced by a more sultry and soft voice. The guitars went from heavy and calculated metal riffs and solos to a slightly more second generation punk sound that would’ve appealed to fans of Green Day and Eve 6 as well as perhaps some later generation grunge. This alienated many fans as a new direction is often labeled as selling out. Also it seemed like the heavy double bass drums on countless Metal albums seemed to give way to a more conventional rock drumming style. The band would not release any new material as a unit until 2005’s Broken Valley. For typical fans, if Ugly was not a early sign of changing winds and Soul Searching Sun the obvious new beginning it was, Broken Valley was even more in the new direction than it’s predecessors. It’s alternative sound was very high quality, But all forms of extreme metal were definitely gone now. Keith was also I believe if memory serves correctly transitioning to Mina Caputo. Other members of the band were busy with other musical endeavors before and after the albums as well as other projects outside of music. Joey Z’s guitar playing shines out still despite the change. The band would again be inactive until 2017’s A Place Where There’s No More Pain. The newest effort sounds very much like Alice In chains as far as vocals. The overall band sound seems to have taken the latest rock trends and made a dark new metal sound that is very pleasing. The band still plays Songs off their first album live but something is missing. It sounds like a cover. The new sound is more them now. I prefer the original but I also think their new sound is best for them. A very underrated gem of a band.
Alternative Darkness 